A FRIEND phoned the other day and asked if I would be prepared to talk to someone whose husband faces a liver transplant. Of course I would. That’s the whole aim of this blog.
As I have said before, when I faced mine just over two years ago the worst thing for me was that I just couldn’t imagine what life would be like afterwards. Neither could I find much on the internet that showed that life was fairly normal after that big operation. There was a lot out there that was simply horror stories — all the stuff that can go wrong. Worse, all the pre-transplant training I had indicated (I think inadvertently) a life lived in some sort of hyper-clean bubble, cut off from others. Happily, I have found all this to be nonsense.
Here’s what life is like: pretty much the same, when you come down to it.
Yes, I take a step back if someone tells me they are sick. If you have something highly contagious, I will send WhatsApps or SMSes or Facebook messages instead of actually visiting. I am on immune system suppressing drugs and I have to be careful. Yay for modern communication techniques!
Yes, I use hand sanitiser more often, probably, than the average person. But that’s not even every day. I do wash my hands quite a bit. So should we all.
As I have said before, I’ve been camping (it was great), hiking (lovely), hot air ballooning (mind-blowingly fantastic), rock and indoor wall climbing (safer than what comes next), cycling (I have decided it is a contact sport best left to the brave, I shall cycle to the shops and back). I have travelled overseas (I didn’t even wear a mask in the planes, didn’t get sick once and my biggest challenge was working out taking time-specific drugs while halfway around the world, which wasn’t really a problem at all). My day-to-day life is very, very normal.
I wish I had known that when I was facing my transplant, it would have reduced my anxiety enormously, and I was enormously anxious. There are so many medical exams to get through, and you don’t know which ones might disqualify you. You have little control over what is happening, and, for me, the idea I might have a transplant came in one day. I went into a surgeon’s room thinking I would have part of my liver cut away, and came out having said yes to a transplant. The wait to get on that list is terrifying because you want that transplant, and a new lease on life, but what you want is also, in itself, seems terrifying thing. I am living proof it need not be.
I go to work every day, I go to the shops, including pharmacies (one fellow transplant recipient told me he avoided them, which is probably easier for a man than a mother), I eat out, even fast food (a get-ready-for-your-transplant nurse made it sound as though takeaways would instantly kill). I am more careful, yes. If something looks even slightly off, I toss it. If I am not sure, I toss it.
I would miss a beer on a hot day, but non-alcoholic beer tastes pretty good. I do miss a glass of red wine, but on special occasions I have a little bit, maybe a sixth of a glass. The pleasure is similar. They make pretty nice, dry, non-alcoholic champagne here in South Africa.
There are foods I can’t eat, and sometimes I do have a short flash of resentment — after all, who doesn’t love a crispy prawn with garlic butter, a gorgeous bowl of bouillabaisse or some squidgy Brie cheese — but, really? Food? It’s hardly the end of the world, especially as the things I was afraid I would lose I believe I will still have:
– Watching my daughter grow into a teenager and then a woman.
– Growing old with my husband.
– Dancing at my daughter’s wedding.
– Grandchildren.
– Seeing nieces and nephews grow up.
– Going to my brother’s wedding.
– Watching the sun rise from my tent.
– Growing old with my friends, and watching their kids grow up.
– Spring rain, Highveld storms, African sunsets and sunrises.
Life is good, and thanks to some enterprising doctors and some kind nurses, my friends and family and, most of all, my husband and daughter, I am here to live it.
I plan to die around 80-something, which gives me another 35-40 years. I can wait!